Social circle

It's only been what? 3 days since the previous update, and my ever loyal reader is already bugging me to update.

So here's one for you Small Head Ken. Btw Ken, I update way more often than you do ok.

Something that's always been on my mind. Ever since I start making friends on my own, which meant since Tadika. Yes, sometimes when I have something on my mind, it wont go away for years.

See, I come across many people, people who try really hard to be accepted by their peers. People who would go lengths just to be notice and accepted, never fails to amaze me.

I tend to ask myself, is it really important to be accepted? Yea sure being a loner sux, but to the extend of where you can't be yourself? Is it really worth it?

I've seen people, especially girls, try so hard to be someone their not, or just flip into a new personality just so that they would be accepted into what is deem as the "popular" crowd. From someone who doesn't swear or ever skip a class, into someone who play truant and swear like that's all they have in their vocabulary.

Are we really that easily affected by peer pressure? Or those people just don't have a personality of their own that they have to try to act like someone else?

Back stabbers are the most scary ones. One who can one minute act all friendly and as tho you guys have been best friends for years and the next minute bad mouthed about you behind your back. I've known people like that, no, I wasn't the one they were bad mouthing about, even if they were I wouldn't know now would I?

I don't despise those people, I know everyone is entitle to their own opinion about someone else, but most of the time, I feel as though they do it out of jealousy more than anything else. I just pity whoever that was the aim at that moment. But at least we know, it will all blow over after awhile cause well, people tend to have short attention spend. They'll eventually move onto a new subject.

I've seen all those people in action just so often I try not to get involve in any. Yes, that's why I usually just sit there and listen, rarely voicing my opinion. The only time I would voice my opinion would be when I'm really piss with someone.

Some times to socialize with a new crowd is like making your way through a minefield. It can be scary, but exciting and fun at the same time.

Here we go

Im finally, truly done with Ausmat, now that LANS subject are all over with.

Our last 2 weeks was generally fun I guess. Torturing and tiring, yes. But at least it was fun. Especially deciding where to go for lunch everyday.

"Where to go for lunch today ah?"
"I don't know, some where far."
So here we go, from lunch at Pyramid to lunch at Ikea to lunch at FullHouse and Dim Sum at USJ21 as well as Bah Kut Teh at ss14 or lunch at Tropicana Mall and so forth.

I'm gonna miss those times.

Not feeling well.

People say I lost weight. Kay thinks it's because I emo too much. If emoing will help me lose weight I would definitely emo even more. But the truth is, this nocturnal habit of mine is the one that's making me lose weight. I stay up late at night that I usually sleep through breakfast and lunch the following day.

I finally realize what effect does alcohol have on me. It makes me momentarily brave. And cause I got so brave I tend to do some stuff that I regret later. Now I gotta live with that. Act like it never happen.

Someone asked why am I so emotionless. I say because being too emotional is hard work as well as it's tiring.

You know something is wrong with you if you say FML when you found out that you have some kind of feeling for someone.

How to people watch the right way

I love people watching. Just sitting around and watch people walk by, carrying out their daily life.

Most of the time Kay and I observe their clothes, usually zooming in on the shoes and bag first when a girl walk by.

It's perfectly normal for a girl to check out another girl. It's just weird when a dude check out another dude thats all.

After years of experience, I notice here are some common mistake people tend to do when people watching.

1. Pointing or any very obvious signals for eg commenting loudly about that person. Whatever that indicate your watching someone.

NEVER EVER POINT . I repeat, NEVER EVER POINT at someone that your gonna observe/check out. That usually gives you away. It's weird enough to have someone watching over you while your just walking around. It's really really weird and awkward when you actually hear what that total stranger person have to say about you. People would just that your a freak/weirdo/perv.

To people watch effectively, use eye contact signal with your friends instead. Of course to do that it usually take some skills and practice with your friend to get each other right. Kay and I are pretty good at that. She asked me check out a guy once and I walked into the ATM machine.

2. Staring openly and shamelessly.

I don't know which is worse, or more stupid while checking out someone, pointing or staring openly.

Staring at people openly and shamelessly is a big NO-NO. HUGE NO-NO. Mind you. It tend to scares the crap outta people or they might misinterpret it into (a) that your interested in hooking up with them. or (b) your a perv cause only retarded perv would stare openly at people like that. (c) your blind, you can't see anything and you won't know what your looking at cause you can't see.

Whatever it is, it's offensive and you might risk getting bashed up.

Try stealing glances instead. Act like your looking at something behind the person. Plus stealing glances is a good way to flirt, that is if your checking out some hot guy and you got caught. You know that whole act shy then flirt with some eye contact dance routine. Guys tend to find girls a little shy attractive. I have no idea why, but I suspect it got something to do with their male ego.

Christmas oh Christmas

Just woke up from my nap since this afternoon after the community service at Harvest Center kid's graduation event for our Moral studies project.

Its so fun to watch those small kids run around, go onto the stage and do their thing. They even had a play call "How the Grinch stole Christmas" (I love that show!)
Christmas is just round the corner. It's so near! Can you smell all that roast turkey?Hear the choirs?

Christmas, everyone's favorite time of the year. But I gotta admit, it haven't felt the same since you left.Yes you, Jijiman. Looking hot in the picture btw. Even hotter than me. wth

Christmas, its just not the same without your whole family around you. It feels a little empty (not to mention lesser present)

Every time during this time of the year around, I start to miss you more. My supposedly twin (cause we look alike as well as our birthday falls right next to each other's).

Who annoy the shit out of me when he's home.
Who constantly bug me about spilling who am I dating at the moment.(Well Jijiman, there isnt anything to tell cause I'm not seeing anyone at the moment.)
Who never seem incapable of growing any more mature (using rubber band to ambush and shoot at unsuspected victim is so not mature)
Who constantly nag me about choosing the right course after Ausmat/SPM.
Who still owes me money (=D)
Who gives me this, =.= whenever I answer what am I gonna do after my finals (take a lucky guess people)
Who acts as my go between with the rest of my family whenever an argument issued.

Ah Christmas.

Allowance cut back

I like this photo, all that happy face.

I don't get it. I'm not that emo anymore, but people still thinks my blog post is very emo.

Quote Gene, "it's so emo it makes me wanna cry"

?????????!!!!!!!!!!!?????????????

Ok maybe I am emo. And the only reason I can think of now on why am I feeling that way is because I got cut back on my allowance!!!!! =(

Some of you might already know that cause I keep going on and on about how poor I am now.

Getting cut back on our allowance always make a big impact on our lifes. BUT it make an exceptionally bigger impact on a girl's life.

Because the cold hard reality truth is that a girl, most of the time, is judged by her appearance. From her hair, face, clothes, accessory, down to her shoes! (oh so important) Without an impressive gigantic wardrobe to impress or to enhance her looks, she'll most probably never get a boyfriend or never get marry and die an lonely old maid with her 10 cats. Because thats the truth, girls are judged most of the time by their appearance.

Unlike guys, cutting back on allowance shouldn't make that big of a difference cause guys aren't expected to have a lot of clothes as they are seldom judged just base on their look. How often do you come across a really ugly looking guy on a date with a babe? More often than seeing a not so pretty girl with a good looking dude.

Pure torture

How to torture a bunch of college kids? You make them go to college for some class they don't really bother about after their finals. To make it even better, stretch the class sessions across 9 hours.

LANS class started today. With 9 hours of pure torture of boredom during class. 9 effing hours in a day! 9 hours a day for 2 weeks! Pure torture.

And the lecturers are not helping to make it any easier for us. Whats more torturing than 9 hours of class is 9 hours of listening to some old woman yab away with lame jokes.

Today's 9 hours was spend, well, definitely not spend listening to the lecturers or taking much notes, but spend laughing at everything we can find to amuse ourselves as well as camwhoring.

The only thing that got me excited about today is, I DROVE TO COLLEGE! Now aren't you proud of me =D

Even fetched Kay and Ken, and they all got home safely. In one piece. Without any missing limbs. And the car didn't lose any more parts.

I am happier

On contrary of what some people might think about my life and me in general after reading some of my post, my life don't revolve around that one person.

I'm way more than that.

I just need to well talk about it and kinda express a little in order to start moving on.

You swipe me off my feet once, but now it's back to reality, I think it's time for some one else to take over that job.I waited, tried to hold on to some feelings, used to be so sure of things, but now I don't think I want to look back anymore. I realize I stop trying like I used to.

I am happier now. That smile on my face, it's not that fake anymore. Thanks to people like Jn, Kay, Nancy, Myee, Maggi, Jamie and so forth who are just so entertaining to watch and hard to not laugh at.

Lets face it, 8 months is enough of moping around. Waiting around for something that would never happen. Hell I went through 8 months of Ausmat moping around and not seeing things as well as people around me, and now I only got less than a month left with those people. I'll try to get the best out of our remainder time.